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I'm usually not one to vent about my personal life most of the time anymore, but....I need help. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm just like, fuck it, you know? While my online life might seem glamourous, my real life isn't all that it's cracked up to be. How? Well....
Fuck Louisville, Kentucky, USA (and customer service)
As some of you know, I constantly struggle financially, and if it wasn't for my parents, I'd be in deep shit. I'm 25, and I still am having a hard time finding jobs I can actually do. I've messed up so many jobs, and I'm just sick of putting up with the bullshit kissing people's asses who are nothing but vile to me, attack me, and try to get me fired even if I did nothing wrong. Yes, I work in customer service, the living hell.
The problem with Louisville, Kentucky, the place I've hated as well as most people here, is that I apply to jobs, they never give me enough hours, and the supervisors/managers are NEVER good, never decent. ALWAYS treat their employees like shit from my experience. That, and I keep messing up everything, always me getting bitched at like I'm dumb. I've experienced this for many years, and today I finally had a mental breakdown.
Yes, I am miserable. I am finally happy with myself as a person, but living in this city has only dragged me down, there are selfish, rude, entitled, stuck-up, angry, reckless driving, assholes here. I want to get the hell out. But I can't, because I'm trapped here because no one will give me enough hours, and I'm forced to work jobs I'm not good at and hate.
I can't take it man....it's tearing me apart mentally, dealing with these people. I'm sick of being around negative people, it's bullshit. I want a positive life, and being here is preventing me from doing that. I don't know what to do anymore, where I fit in, what to do. I've had this problem off and on, but today takes the cake. Worst day I've had in a long time....
Most of you won't read all of this, I'm just like whatever anymore, but this is how I feel. I need help. I'm stuck, at a dead end. I'm glad my music business is doing well though, it definitely does help, thank you guys. I just want to quit this job at the grocery store fuel station but I have nowhere else to go. I hate the people here, and my friends got married and left me behind. Some friends, right? They hang with other people now. Fuck them for that, honestly.
I am very much a heart person, lately I've been taking better care of myself, and I'm tired of putting up with bullshit I don't have to. I can't stand these people anymore, I don't want to be around these miserable childish immature assholes who don't know how to be managers and be decent, drive on the road, and treat people in general. I've had it. They've made me nothing but miserable. I want a positive life, not this bullshit I deal with on a daily basis.
It's a toxic environment, it's hurting me emotionally, and physically. Mentally in general. I screamed and cussed and broke down crying, and I'm not afraid to admit it. I want friends to hang out with, I've lived alone for 4 years, my job IS my people interaction, rarely seeing anyone else. Last night I had a dream of talking with people about anime at some guy's house who was also a musician....that's the kind of life I want. Not this bullshit.
I've thought about doing stand-up comedy, but I have stage fright. I don't know what to do at this point. I just want a job with a decent manager, that pays well, and gets me enough hours. I want a life. With that said....I'm broken down right now. I'm happy with myself, but miserable with this life. It's unhealthy. I want to be healthy.
So....if anyone has any ideas on something else I can do, or how I can get the hell out of Louisville, KY, please....let me know....thanks....
Send Love to Troisnyx
I know I just made a post, but I today I have my front page post privelages (wish I could post there more than every 2 weeks), and I wanted to use that to ask you to please be there for @Troisnyx . She is feeling crushed emotionally, doubting her skill in drawing, but I personally LOVE her artwork! Great art isn't about placing in a contest, but admiring your craft and sharing your gift, your love, your heart with the world!
She feels she hasn't made any real progress, and doesn't want to draw anymore. She makes beautiful art and is a talented inspirational human being to me, a great friend, so pretty PLEASE send her messages of encouragement and love, because I would hate to see her give up on her art. She has a lot of love from the audio community and TO the audio community, a lot of love to give.
She's been working on a beautiful loving project; an NG front page skin depicting some of the familiar faces in the Audio Portal.
Send her some love for her artistic talent, and in general: http://troisnyx.newgrounds.com/
Check out her Kingdom Hearts fan art: http://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/troisnyx/world-that-never-was-jazza-s-cotm-may-2017
25% Off Commissions Summer Sale
I already posted about this, so I'll link you to the last post, but if you want custom music from me, right now is a great time, because from June 2nd - June 16th, my prices are 25% off, so you can save a quarter of the price for a couple of weeks. I recently released a new song called "Ominous", so if you want quality music like that (I make different genres of music too), check out my last post: http://realfaction.newgrounds.com/news/post/987626
Newgrounds Audio Deathmatch
Also, go audition for the Newgrounds Audio Deathmatch I help organize and setup this year, I sadly couldnt remain the captain of this flagship of a project, so I had to pass the torch. Had to take care of some things in my life. Go check it out here, they're all doing a wonderful job running it: http://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/1423320
Put out a new song, so before I talk about how I need commissions right now and the discount summer sale i'm holding, go check it out. It's a commission I made for a client, so if you're interested in getting a commission from me, it's a good time to! And, this song will give you an idea of the quality of my work, but I can make many genres!
Need Commissions (25% Discount Summer Sale!)
So I've never done a sale for my business before, boy do I feel like a dummy, I should do them more often. My prices for a song commission are down by 25% from June 2nd to June 16th! Grab it while you can! :) If you want a custom song by me, and want more info, go to http://www.flareheartstudio.com/catalog .
(my job cut my hours again and my supervisors have been terrible to everyone, so people like me are leaving but i'm looking for a new job first)
NEW COMEDY SERIES: Billy Joe & Company
So, sometimes i play 7 Days to Die on a server with friends, it's a lot of fun. Been doing it for some months now, but we end up having laughs every time, so I figured it would be fun to record our funny convos. Only there's a twist, my voice acting is involved, playing a character I made up named BIlly Joe, improvising in-character (with some scripted scenes but mostly not) but they are themselves. Enjoy, I'll be making more episodes.
PS: I shaved my head, I'm bald and loving it.
Hey there, the Art-Inspired Music Contest album is out now for FREE download, showcasing all the winners, as well as an album I was a part of as a tribute to @SnowTeddy (famously known as dem0lecule) called "m0lecular" to also donate to charity to help a friend out. It would mean so much if you could donate even $1 to the cause! If you want to pay by paypal, donate your amount to the album m0lecule when you download it on BandCamp. If you're okay with credit card, GoFundMe.
PS: If you don't want to download the AIM album on bandcamp, here's a playlist to all the winners: http://www.newgrounds.com/playlists/view/e428de480ced99219e99b0533ea9bbac
Art-Inspired Music Contest Vol. 4 Album (FREE): https://artinspiredmusic.bandcamp.com/album/art-inspired-music-2017-vol-4
m0lecular Charity Album: https://the-underground-collective.bandcamp.com/album/m0lecular-soundwaves-in-liberty
Charity Page: https://www.gofundme.com/help-my-abused-girlfriend-move
Updates With Me
So, I decided to put myself first for once and get my priorities straight, take some time to do what's needed, and cut out anything that isn't as important, because I was overwhelming myself with things. I barely see my friends, I don't game anymore hardly, I haven't even done much with music hardly at all lately. Something's gotta change.
So, I decided to pass the Newgrounds Audio Deathmatch to @ChronoNomad, he'll do a good job with it. It's way too much for me to even judge it or compete in it right now. So, I'm taking a little break. I'm also going to start doing commissions again, as I have a couple already I need to work on as soon as I'm not sick anymore, as this past week has been rough, and I have been sick and haven't slept well, it's really bad. Also, pollens been really bad this year so allergies suck.
Also, I'll be focusing more on Venturescape, my audio play project involving a lot of voice actors. I've been in production for a while. My goal is to get more commissions to get more money since I don't have as many hours at work now, I have a few days off a week. I'll have more time for that, friends, gaming, and commissions. That's all I'll focus on, and getting my health better. I'm going to try anxiety meds, kinda nervous.
Basically, I'm used to stressing myself out with waayyy too much, so I'm pulling back to focus on the stuff I really need to, and ocassionally working on my own personal music, which I haven't done in a while. I'm taking a break from that for a bit until my health gets better from this winding down process, to fix my health issues. Then, I'll be back to working on more of my own music this year. Also, taking more time to meditate, and enjoy stuff in general like movies, tv shows, and games as I mentioned, just normal stuff, and with friends. I need that.
Well that's about it, gonna be like this for a while. However, in a month or so, I plan on releasing a teaser trailer for Venturescape with the theme song I made for it. It's my first Chillstep song. Been thinking about doing more Chillstep in the future, something I love to listen to, and that I thought I'd take a crack at.
P.S.: I'll probably record a podcast soon this week about all of this. Not sure when I'll return to my nerdy topic format, but for now it'll be back to personal topics. Laters!
I know I just made a post about the contests, but this is important. To see the contests post, click here: http://realfaction.newgrounds.com/news/post/986104
Art-Inspired Music Contest Winners: http://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/1423011
m0lecular / Help My Friend Get Out Of Her Abusive Home
I recently released a song I made for an album organized by The Underground Collective, which is an open group of coming and going musicians, an album dedicated to the wonderful dem0lecule (currently @agitat0r, and @mactamendax) that's also going to charity to help a friend save his girlfriend from her abusive home (she is like a daughter to me, I would adopt her if I could).
Dem0lecule has had many names over the years, and has inspired a lot of the musicians here on newgrounds, such as myself, and has contributed prizes to contests with his generosity. We love you, man. <3 Thanks for inspiring and giving.
The album is on BandCamp, and any donations go to my friend Jacob, who is struggling in life, wanting to dedicate it to getting his girlfriend out of her abusive home, she is like a daughter to me.
It would mean the world to me if you even donated $1, anything helps them.
Donate to the Cause: https://www.gofundme.com/help-my-abused-girlfriend-move
More info on the album: http://forgottendawn.newgrounds.com/news/post/986225
PS: I WILL be singing over this eventually, and that version will be on a future Piercing Lazer album. :)
Art-Inspired Music Contest Judging Week / Fan Favorite Thread
Hey guys, so this week the judges and I are judging the top 3 winners and the runner-ups. I've been super busy with work and not sleeping well, so Tuesday and Wednesday I will catch up on the submissions I haven't gotten to look at and review yet. In the meantime, here's the yearly Fan Favorite Voting Thread: http://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/1422831
P.S.: Even if you didn't make the deadline, PLEASE still submit your entries to the Submission Thread, we would all love to see your work even if it doesn't make the contest: http://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/1421358
Thanks to @Hikari, @EDM364, an @LexaHergon for judging this year! Also, shoutout to the very missed @Phyrnna, the "mother" of this contest (I being the "father", we started this thing together with our ideas). Much love to you Phy! <3
Newgrounds Audio Deathmatch Major News
There is good news and bad news about the NGADM. The good news is, yes it's still happening and it's all organized, it starts this month, May 28th, the Auditions anyway before the first round. I organized the team, and @TaintedLogic helped organize the schedule, and the community was great with suggestions throughout last year and this year. Here's the organization thread: http://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/1419355
Now, the bad news. I realize in my current life, I have too much going on with my job, my Venturescape project, just life in general. I need a break. With that said, I cannot run it this year, though I am happy to have organized the team. I am passing the torch to the wonderful @ChronoNomad to be the one in charge, with potentially @TaintedLogic and @Hikari second-in-command, we'll see. I'll be watching the tournament from afar, I can't judge either, sadly to say, or participate.
Good luck in AIM and the NGADM everyone! I'll be watching. In the meantime, I've also been in production with Venturescape. More updates on that in the soon future. I'd like to start up my podcast series again, once AIM is over and I have more time to myself.
The past few days I've been kind of silent due to not sleeping well and feeling sick, I'm getting better, but I've just needed rest. I haven't been able to get to the overwhelming amount of new A.I.M. submissions yet, but hopefully soon in the next couple of days or so. I usually get a lot done on a good day.
Thanks to all who are participating, life's been hard for me as of late. My health is still an issue every now and then and sometimes I have to call off a day at work...so I'm a bit worried I'll lose my job because of it. I'm lucky I haven't already. Honestly, I want a work from home job but I don't see any hope of that, but if anyone has suggestions, let me know. Thanks.
Good luck everyone, thanks for submitting to the contest!
Here's the final Season 1 cast announcement for Venturescape!
Krystal Valentine - @SailorSilverStar
Young Krystal / Abigail / Rose Leach - Jenny Glynn
Noel Rae - Ariel Harris
Dr. Adam Walls / Jeremiah - P.M. Seymour
Jessica (last name is a spoiler) - Marissa Lenti
Young Jessica / Early 1900's Woman / Billy's Mom / Krystal's Mom / Ashley / Debbie Prescott (news anchor) - @ATheatricalSongbird
Billy's Dad / Police Officer / Man with the Mask - @Ceevro
Tina Brown (news reporter) - @LadyArsenic
Jacob Leach - @TommyNom
Ryan / Harvey Walt (news anchor) - @MakeStuff
Daniel - @TrinaTan
Roots Research Lab Employee - @MysticSkillz
Krista Welch - @Adoxographist
The DJ / Daniel's Bully - @RealFaction
I'd like to thank all the amazing people who auditioned, and I'm thankful for the support I'm getting. Thanks to my actors who spread the word to other actors too! Now we can go full steam with production! Later this year it should be done. Remember, whenever I start production with Season 2 next year, I'll be looking for more voices then too. Thanks guys!
Great news, I've got all but 1 role filled for Venturescape (which may change soon!) Season 1! I made a couple of social media accounts if you want to follow those. I'm eventually going to make a YouTube channel and Newgrounds page for it as well, but for now, Twitter and Facebook. Go follow them! :) I'm hoping in the next month or two I'll be able to give a teaser trailer to the series.
It's still a bit early to be making these,but I figured why not. Though, you'll get the same updates here. It's mostly for anyone who doesn't use newgrounds to be directed to here.
It all started when I was 18, in highschool, writing this story for what would be 7 years and counting. Originally, it was going to be a book, then a comic book, and now it is finally an audio drama series. I am more passionate about this project than even my music, and I am making music for this series, voice acting small parts, editing it, casting people for the roles, and producing it. As soon as I get the final role filled, I'm going to soon announce the full cast! Thanks for all the support guys! Loved the auditions!
Seriously, look at this beautiful artwork of my characters by @Lampabot !
Hi there! I've been casting more voice actors for my audio drama series, Venturescape Season 1! I've casted many talented folks here from newgrounds, as well as from Funimation (Marissa Lenti), voice actors in Freedom Planet (Aimee Smith and P. M. Seymour), and Brizzyvoices! This series is written, directed, and edited by me and I'm doing some of the original music for the series as well as a few other great NG musicians!
The series is currently in production, but if I get these parts filled soon enough, I want to provide a teaser trailer in the Summer or before, I'm hoping. My goal is to release the series later this year. So what parts do I need? Let's see! If you wish to try out for these parts, message me and I'll give you some test lines!
Venturescape Episodes 3-8 Casting
Female Main Roles Needed
Noel Rae (Role Taken): 16 years of age, should sound shy, but sweet. Is from Orlando, Florida in the story, she will have an American accent. She loves to write stories, and has goes through a lot of trauma, hence why she is shy and scared. She's one of the main characters and appears throughout the series,
Female Side Roles Needed
Krista Jean: 30-years old, spunky, a tomboy, got some edge to her personality. She's a little wacky and a thrill-seeker, she's the type that would love to go skydiving. As far as her voice, I want her to sound distinct, something maybe with a little rasp or gravel in her voice like she smoked a lot. I'm open for interpretation of this role though. She almost is a main character with how many lines she has in the series. (Think of Revy from Black Lagoon type of voice if possible)
Female News Reporter (Role Taken): Sounds professional like a female news anchor would. Should sound anywhere from mid 20's to older in range, I'm open with this.
Male Main Roles Needed
Jacob Leach (Role Taken): 22 years old, Rose's older brother. They moved to America from Brighton, England, so he has an English accent. I'm open for interpretation with this role. I may do the role, but I'd like to see if I can find someone good for him. He's one of the main characters of the series. Though, he's mostly serious, a little TOO serious.
Male Side Roles Needed (the kids could be played by a female though as well)
Male News Anchor (Role Taken): Professional sounding like you would hear on the news, anywhere from mid 20's to older.
Ryan (Role Taken): A male in his mid 30's (sound-wise) who is caring and responsible. Think of how your highschool teacher would act like. He helps one of the main characters in a major way.
Daniel (Role Taken): A little 8-year old boy (who could be played by a male or female) who feels insecure about himself, and doesn't like people too much, until Rose warms up to him.
Playground Bully (name isn't said): The boy who picks on Daniel from time to time, around 10-years old. I might play this role if I can't find anyone for him.
PA System Voice/Roots Research Lab Employee (Role Taken): During a big event (no spoilers here), a voice over the PA system announces stuff. No specific voice required here, I'm open for any interpretation, so long as it sounds good. It involves minor shouting (not like at the top of your lungs shouting, but more like raised volume in voice).
If anyone currently on the team would like to try out for these roles or spread the word to anyone you know who you think would do the roles justice, feel free to link them here! Thanks! Here's the official reveal of the Season 1 artwork by the talented @Lampabot ! I added the title.