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Updated note: It's not my intention to hurt anyone with this, but a disclaimer to the modern "norm", and the damage it can cause to others, and potentially causing you to lose friends. I'm glad this is well-recieved so far, but I prepared for the worst. It's just something to take in consideration, I want to spread love to the world, sorry if this comes off as harsh, just has to be said. I love you guys.
Even though I posted something yesterday on my medical condition, I'm using my front page post today. Why? Because I'm really getting sick of these Autism jokes. It's not funny, and I happen to have Autism. Lately, I've been seeing people online do that "autistic screeching" bullshit. Yeah, it's a bit offensive, and no, I'm not going to get over it. It makes me sad. We never asked to live with this mental handicap, we never asked to be undermined. It's the same as being racist, in the sense you're doing what you're doing.
Before you think I'm out of line here, hear me out, and think about what you've done. This is a perspective of the people you're insulting. Surprise, I ACTUALLY have Autism.
Am I insecure about having Asbergers Syndrome, a form of Autism? A bit. It's not something I enjoy living with, but it makes me wonder if it's because of that which I'm able to be creative the way I am. Part of me resents it, part of me doesn't, because technically it does make me who I am today, but it's a constant struggle. It's a pain in the ass. So for the future, do what you want, but just know you're disrespecting people like me when you insult us like that.
I see people say on YouTube all the time in comments, "stop being so autistic". I'm sorry, but fuck that. That's not okay, and it's people like JonTron and LeafyIsHere who teach people that it's okay to be an asshole, as long as some people think it's funny, and that "butthurt" people should "get over it". They use their fame for hate, and justify it by saying "free speech is a right". It is a thing, but so is bullying people. I'm waking you all up.
Want to see your good friends leave? Keep it up. I'm sure people will try to attack me after making this post saying i'm "wrong" or trolls coming out to get me. I'm aware of what I'm inviting. Also, "triggered" is distasteful and childish. Grow up. I'm sick of these fads, these fucked up trends in current society, if you can call it that anymore. We aren't any less human or capable than ANY of you.
Sorry to be a bummer, but fuck all of this. I'm going to use this front page post to send a good message for once and say, think about what you say, before you say it, because once you lose the people you have, all because you thought something insulting was funny, it'll be too late.
People like me who deal with Autism having to put up with this shit like a doormat is unacceptable. We shouldn't control what people say, no, but I'm sick of people carelessly talking about a serious mental issue like it's some shit to joke about. THAT'S the point. I'm making a stand, and I'm going to be one of the rolemodels who puts a foot down on this issue, it's sad that it's even an issue at all. So, I've said my peace, call me "triggered", call me "Autistic", do what you want, just be aware of what you're doing. I'm not coddling, I'm being a voice for people like me.
Just something to think about. I'm not staying quiet anymore. If putting myself in the line of fire for insults and trolls is what it takes to stop all this by taking a stand, so be it, if it makes you feel better about your life by putting someone down. Believe it or not, this is so widespread, it's ruining our reputation, making it hard for us to find jobs 90% of the time, and people wanting NOTHING to do with us when they find out we have Autism. Please stop spreading this misinformation to ruin our reputation.
UPDATE: I just released a new song I started on months ago, but didn't come back to until now. Check it out: http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/736394 I'm going to write and record lyrics to it hopefully this week. It'll be a gentle song to sing for my lungs. It's dedicated to a friend who painted me a mini-canvas that says "Breathe", so that's the name of the song, something I need to learn how to do, to improve my condition, to relax.
I was going to go to the hospital earlier, but I went to the doctor in the afternoon after my specialist talked with him. For now, we're trying a very strong acid reflux medicine after 4 medicines did not help me. Yes, you heard me, 4. Apparently I have bad acid reflux, not sure of the cause. I'm getting my gallbladder checked next week at the hospital via ultrasound.
For now, that's all I have to update you all with. I have been losing sleep, I can't go to work unless this medicine works, and even with insurance, it's over $100....shit. It's killing my parents, this is getting out of control. So for now, I've been at home. Hopefully, tonight I'll get some good sleep, then I can see how the meds do tomorrow, hoping nothing goes wrong this time.
In the meantime, I'm still judging/reviewing the Art-Inspired Music Contest submissions, and we've gotten some amazing entries so far. You should go check them out here: http://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/1421358
I've also been talking to friends to keep me calm, and my girlfriend, who I've decided to go public about. Her name is Alyx, she is awesome. Been together almost 3 weeks now.
So...Anime. Let's Talk About It.
I've also been a shut-in watching anime, so I reccomend watching that dragon maid anime, look it up, I forget the long ass name it is. It's kinda adorable to watch, and though it's kinda simplistic and more slice-of-life than supernatural though it mixes the two, it's not bad.
Also, Highschool of the Dead.
Yeah yeah I know what you're thinking "ooh titties! It's an ecchi anime so it's gotta suck!". Listen, I was shocked at how good this series actually is, and like Ghost Stories, actually rewrote some lines for the american adaptation, throwing in some funny jokes about Sarah Palin (just one, don't worry), and other stuff. It even references Shaun of the Dead as an easter egg. I won't spoil that, but it's pretty fricken cool, and funny, when you see the reference.
If you're a fan of zombie movies, anime, love good writing, and great voice acting, watch the english dub of Highschool of the Dead. It's loaded with fan service, but whether you like that or not, the writing, action, acting, animation, all of it as a whole, I'm in love with this series, it's really good. The character development is the best part, which is something I appreciate a lot when I watch something or when I write.
I was shocked at the depth of the characters, how realistic this gets compared to most anime, and how great the acting is, it gets really sad and emotional, but it's deep stuff man. It's been a while since I've enjoyed an anime series this much as far as checking something new out (in the sense I haven't seen it yet). It's a realistic approach (minus the boob physics and laws of gravity in general) to how a zombie apocolypse would be handled between friends, but it's more than just that. Go watch it.
So yeah, Anime Corner is done now, I'm going to go to bed, and see how things go tomorrow. RF, out.
UPDATE: Well, because the system has failed me, and no specialist will see me soon enough, and because my condition has gotten so bad I could barely sleep last night and not work today, I'm going to a hospital. As you remember, I went to one in November, but they just gave me a temporary fix and sent me on my merry way. I'm going to make SURE they don't do that again, I want to be CURED. I'll make them keep me overnight and give me an endoscopy whatever it takes. I'll try and bring my laptop.
My health condition is getting worse, acid reflux burning my stomach badly even though i've been eating the same and nothing to upset my stomach and i've done what my doc told me to do. My friend thinks it's my gallbladder or a hiatal hernia...not sure. But im losing sleep over it and i feel sick some of the time, it's hard to eat and sleep. And specialists are telling me i have to wait until may or june...I don't have that long.
I'm calling every day to see if i can move the appointment up. But sadly this means no music for a while more (even though I made a metal track but I can't release it quite yet, but next month it might get released, it's for something special I can't announce yet), no podcast episodes (I gag frequently off and on from it and can't talk very well), etc. BUT, I can still do the AIM contest, maybe not replying as frequently, but I can still do it. But that's all I can do for now.
For 6 years I've had doctors give me dead ends, no real answers as to why I am this way. Acid Reflux to the extreme since November, breathing issues that isn't asthma, chest tightness, Anxiety Disorder, Depression (now cured), food sensitivity (i literally can't eat anything outside of 10 or less foods because my tongue flares up and my stomach because of whatever this is), I can't eat a lot of carbs or sugars or my body will freak out (but not Diabetic, i got tested), and I know it's triggered worse by gluten, that's the worst, my guess it's gluten-related but I cut that out of my diet 6 years ago.
Before 6 years ago, I did not have all these issues and I know they're all linked to whatever this is, and it's getting worse. :( I'm scared, I don't want to go to another hospital. If anyone can tell me what this is, instead of me wasting more money for 6 MORE years getting no clear answers from anyone, please let me know.....I feel sick. It's nothing I ate, I've been eating the same unfortunately....I just want to be cured already, it's ruining my life. I want to keep my job and live a normal life....
I can't tell you how much it's hurting me physically and emotionally, because of how stressful and upsetting this is, I've been fighting this bullshit for too long, too young to have these problems. Anyway.....stay tuned for a song next month and updates in the soon future...I hope. No podcast for a while. Sorry guys.
Well, it's finally happening guys. A.I.M. Contest 2017. I hate to say I don't have an artist currently for this year's poster or prizes yet, but I want to get one. Any volunteers? I need more prizes. Part of this was because I was organizing NGADM, so prizes so far area little on the slim side, but I want there to be more soon if anyone is kind enough to donate, hopefully!
PS: New podcast episode, check it out here: http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/734335
Good luck, here's a half-assed announcement video and the contest thread link if you want to enter: http://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/1421358
Also, 9 years ago I made the Necromancer theme, and I have a message to all the ones who say "you're a one-hit wonder, your 15 minutes of fame are up" on YouTube.
I need commissions because my job is cutting everyone's hours back due to a dumb decision by corporate, not caring about how we need the hours to make enough money pay our bills, so if you wanna commission me, check out http://www.FlareheartStudio.com and go to the Commission page, I updated the site in a couple places.
New email to contact me is RFmusic180@gmail.com for commissions, fan mail, fan art, etc.
Art-Inspired Music Contest
The contest is happening soon, March 19th, a week from Sunday! That's when it starts, so don't start making any music until then. I'll update the official post (linked at the front page date) with the forum topic on that day. The official judges are me, @Bosa, @Hikari, and @EDM364. I'm excited! For more info, click the link (highlighted text) at the front pages date which will take you to the post.
Help a Friend or Two?
@Kiwi-KittyMagic and @Phyrnna are struggling financially right now, help them? Kiwi needs a new laptop to start drawing again and she's going to be drawing one of my new album covers. Phyrnna's mom has been in the hospital (and I believe got out ok if I'm not mistaken) but the hospital bills are really whaling on them, and need help.
Donate to Kiwi: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/22821033/
Donate to Phyrrna: https://ko-fi.com/Phyrnna
Alien: Covenant (New Talking Real Episode)
In my latest episode of my podcast series Talking Real, I discuss my thoughts and theories on the newest trailer of the next movie in the Alien franchise. Check it: http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/733102
Hey guys, I'm looking for programmers for NG: Zero Hour (if you remember it), and music producers for my rap project, Kid Project. The record would be free, no money would be made, but would be cool to collab, I rap, but not a lot of people know that. If you're interested in either, comment below, or contact me!
Game Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CwHyvczpKIs
Game Demo: http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/664782
Also, check out my latest podcast talking about me having to poop in a hat (medical condition updates) and 7 Days to Die, and check out my Old Man Joker voice acting clip, for all ye Batman fans. That's all for now, Venturescape Episode 1 is in production! Yay!
Old Man Joker: http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/729687
New podcast episode: http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/730257
Art-Inspired Music Contest 2017 (A.I.M.)
Contest Forum Thread: http://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/1421358
What is it?: It's a contest for musicians to help improve their skills with solid advice from experienced musicians as well as to have fun with this creative endeavor, searching for artwork in the Art Portal, whatever inspires you for an awesome song! You then link to the artwork and your song, but take your time! This contest goes on for almost 2 months, so you have plenty of time!
Newgrounds Audio Deathmatch 2017
Countdown Clock: https://w2.countingdownto.com/1754190
Same goes for the Newgrounds Audio Deathmatch Auditions thread! Auditions for NGADM starts May 28th, so you can submit a new or old song you made starting then on the thread until June 25th whenever it gets posted, which will be here. Last year there was no NGADM, but this year, we have restarted this epic tournament, be prepared!
What is it?: NG's most challenging audio competition to test the might of the musicians! A tournament that tests the musicians that make it past the audition round to battle against each other to the finish! This is indeed NG's hardest competition in the music department, alongside A.I.M. of course.
Talking Real: Resident Evil 7
Told you guys I would be talking about Resident Evil 7 in my next podcast episode, well, here it is! I give my thoughts on my impression of the game and theories on what may be next for the RE series. Enjoy: http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/727964
Frieza's Wish (I'm Babadi)
Go check out the first part of @MysticSkillz DBZ fan animation, I voice Babadi! :D
Looking For Game Programmer for NG: Zero Hour
Title speaks all. I'm looking for a programmer to finish this awesome game that we started. We have a lot of sprites already, but I want to establish a programmer first before I start looking for artists again (maybe calling some old ones back) who will help finish this game. Check out the demo, and if you think you have the skills, show me your games, post a comment! (Note: Game works best on Google Chrome, doesn't play on some browsers)
Hey there! Before I get into the A.I.M. (Art-Inspired Music) Contest, and NGADM (Newgrounds Audio Deathmatch) updates regarding if you guys are okay with the proposed schedules for this year, go check out my new podcast episode of Talking Real, taking a NEW turn this time, talking about the Geometry Dash situation, and in future episodes, about other things besides my own life like Nintendo and nerd culture.
Check it Out Here (I'm now posting these to YouTube as well for the first time): http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/726613
NGADM/AIM Contest Schedules/Need Help
I've been organizing both contests this year, and it's a BIG responsibility (especially since I'm working a lot with my new job), so I need a Co-Director (basically a second leader when I'm gone at work) for the NGADM. If you know someone responsible, experienced, organized, and can take on the role of second leader, write in the comments who you think would do well.
@TaintedLogic has a proposed schedule for the NGADM as we've been talking about it (here: http://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/1419355/2), IF YOU COMPETE THIS YEAR, let us know if this schedule works for you, we're trying to make most contestants happy with it, so give us feedback? :)
TaintedLogic: (all dates are mm/dd/yy)
("J" denotes judging phase)
Auditions: 5/28/17 - 6/25/17
Auditions (J): 6/26/17 - 7/2/17
(We might even want to let judges start judging earlier than the 26th if there are enough submissions. We'll have to plan ahead of time for this by mandating that no one can change their audition piece after a certain date.)
Round 1: 7/3/17 - 7/16/17
Round 1 (J): 7/17/17 - 7/23/17
Round 2: 7/24/17 - 8/6/17
Round 2 (J): 8/7/17 - 8/11/17
Round 3: 8/12/17 - 8/25/17
Round 3 (J): 8/26/17 - 8/29/17
Round 4: 8/30/17 - 9/12/17
Round 4 (J): 9/13/17 - 9/15/17
Round 5: 9/16/17 - 9/29/17
Round 5 (J): 9/30/17 - 10/2/17
Art-Inspired Music Contest Schedule (still need judges and working on prizes, going to start a thread on that in a week)
March 19th - May 7th (both are Sundays)
Do these schedules work? That way, AIM could still be almost 2 months. If we can finalize the schedule for NGADM soon, AIM can be organized soon, as I want it in March (that is pretty soon, but gives enough time for hype and preperation). Let us know! And, let us know who'd make a good second leader.
Health Condition + Music + Personal Life
Well....apparently we figured out what's been wrong with me for 6 years, FINALLY. I had it as a kid, called Leaky Gut Syndrome (what a mature scientific name...yes it's real). It has been draining me and having multiple symptoms of malnourishment all these years, I'm going to a specialist Friday to get meds for this, hoping my life can be what it was when I could run freely, do lots of things freely, and not get easily tired.
This is why I've been taking a break from music, and my current job has me working 8 1/2 hour shifts 5 days a week...holy moly. Rarely any of my friends hear from me because even on my off days I just want to relax, not much energy. Hopefully meds can clear this all up. I plan on eventually working on Kid Project, Piercing Lazer, and other stuff more.
In the meantime, I'm going to do my podcast series Talking Real weekly, expanding to topics I'm a fan of other than just myself, and making the episodes longer. :) Well that's about it, let me know what you guys think about the stuff I mentioned earlier, next podcast will be after Friday to give updates from the specialist, hopefully, and some Resident Evil 7 thoughts and theories since I've followed every game since the beginning. Later guys, off to work for me.
UPDATE: RobTop posts a blog the GD users should really read. Props to the guy, much respect: http://robtopgames.com/blog/2017/02/01/geometry-dash-newgrounds/
Here's my official podcast statement and guide on the situation: http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/726613
I'm getting a lot of hate and insults regarding the takedown for Geometry Dash, but I will have an official statement on my end SOON being your complete guide to what happened, and the future of GD when I record my podcast talking about it next when I have time (will link here when it's up). I have a job, and I work a lot, I come home tired. I have a medical condition, which also drags me down.
So bear with me, soon I'll explain what's going on with GD, how it's affected NG to help people understand, and how they've tried contacting RobTop for YEARS without response from him. That's my statement until Friday. There's hopefully going to be a future for GD, but now he's going to be forced to do what he should've done years ago; Fix the issues, and actually talk to us. When you run a community, communication is IMPORTANT. It shows you care.
In the meantime, please stop attacking me and the mods like we aren't human beings, hate never got anyone anywhere. I don't want anyone upset, but if you simply think of the factors in all this, you'll see why we aren't being unreasonable, we have been for years, even though I haven't known about GD for as long. The simple truth is, Rob could have done more to solve things, but chose not to, and ignored people.
You'll try to direct that back at us, but what they did for years was civil and TRIED to sort this out, you act like they never did, and like you know all the history when you need to see how hard they've tried to sort this out and simply talk to Rob. It took TOO LONG to get to this point. With that said, I hope RobTop and Tom Fulp can figure out something that works for NG and GD in the future when GD is hopefully revived with a fix.
What do I think of the game? I played it a few times. It's fun, and challenging, well-made. BUT, people abuse Newgrounds to upload copyrighted music and use music without permission. The game has flaws like that. The original idea is a good one, probably with good intentions, but unfortunately ended up in chaos. GD users that are hateful, voting down songs in the audio portal, leaving abusive reviews, not caring about the site but using it like a tool for GD, that's all it is to them.
Not to mention, thousands of songs per month, SPAM uploaded from these users like Skrillex songs, ignoring the rules and making a lot of work for the mods without a real break, all because of GD. It was way less years ago, people still uploaded stolen music, but the count was way less before GD. It has put Newgrounds under the boot of many people, trampled on, treated like dirt, and RobTop let this happen for years, when NG tried to make him aware of it. I don't want my songs (like Neon Highway, which was used) with a CC license you NEED permission to use, in a game without my permission. Simply respecting the artist would be nice.
Think about it. That is all, for now.
I have 1,500 followers, a big milestone for me, thank you so much! Second of all, I have a new episode of my podcast series "Talking Real" out, talking about some of the stuff I mention in this post. I also talk about how Pixel Day went.
Here it is: http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/725134
Making a Game, Send Help! (I need Programmers and Artists for NG: Zero Hour)
As some of you remember, I made a game with @TwinBlazar and many others called "Newgrounds: Zero Hour", a demo rather. I need programmers and artists, so if you're interested, contact me if you want to help me finish this game, whether you want to contribute one or more things. We were going to finish it, but....it's my fault we didn't. Next point...
(Here's the Demo by the way: http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/664782)
I rushed things too much, and stressed everyone out. Originally I said he quit but...that wasn't true. So I'd like to apologize for misunderstanding, not being truthful about that, and not being reasonable as a person back then. I mistreated him. Which leads me to my next point...
Help TwinBlazar Get His Next Game Greenlit on Steam!!!
Title speaks for itself, his new game is amazing, go check out his post, sign in to Steam, and upvote his game, it's solid stuff! I want to see him get his stuff out there more!
That's all for now, podcast tells you more about what's going on if you're curious about the current status of music I'm going to be uploading. Pixel Day was a blast! Thank you guys for submitting! Can't wait for next year! :D
Happy Pixel Day! I can't wait to see your submissions! I'll be judging them throughout the week with @TomFulp when we have the time for it soon. Also, you can expect me to leave reviews! :) It makes me really happy this is a yearly thing, I'm really glad I shared this idea with Tom in 2015. Seeing you guys participate means a lot to me, I like bringing things for you guys to participate in.
PS: At the bottom I talk about a certain game I'd like to finish called Newgrounds Zero Hour...
Newgrounds Audio Deathmatch/Art-Inspired Music Contest
I posted a new thread in the Audio Forum on organizing the 2017 NGADM, and I need help. If you're interested in voicing your opinions on when it should be this year, how long, interested in participating or being on the staff, check this out: http://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/1419355
It also means the status of the A.I.M. Contest will be riding on this, because depending on the time of year the NGADM is, AIM will either be before, or a little at the tail end of it. I really want AIM to be this year, so we'll see how that goes after we figure this out, that'll be next.
Podcast/Real Faction Stuff
If you're curious about my personal/music life regarding what I'm doing with music, why you haven't seen much from me as of late, what my plans are for this year, check out my Talking Real podcast series, I posted a new episode this week: http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/723381
Newgrounds: Zero Hour
This game....we've gotta finish this game eventually, right? The demo is still up and sometimes I STILL play it! It's fun. I'm looking for a programmer mainly right now, and a few artists. We have a lot of the assets already (a lot that aren't in the demo but future stages too). If you're interested, let me know!
That's all for now, been busy working at my new job, and loving it. Lately life has brought some rough waves to me stressing me out a bit, but I'll get through it. All the info is in the podcast. Can't wait to see what you guys have for Pixel Day! PS: I think I said Sunday, and I was wrong, sorry about that (in the podcast).